Inner child

Australia 2018. “The child in the age of 18 months to 3 year can be a challenge for the parents. Kids behave very self-centred and touch everything”. After explaining a bit more about the emotional mess a kid can get into when parents are in a failing relationship and abuse is taking place, it’s time for an exercise. “Please write a letter to your inner child about how well you know each other and be specific about one situation in particular. Tell her that you are going to take care of her”. I see long letters coming. “No, you don’t have to share them”, I say, where I would otherwise ask them to read them to each other. Something is holding me back. “Close your eyes and relax your body. Breath three times deeply. “ Remember the first house you lived in…” 

Inner Child sadness
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At the end of the meditation Renae is sobbing, tears rolling down her cheeks. “ My uncle touched  me”, she whispers. Even more tears. The whole class is silent. Her friend gives her a hug. “I’m glad he is dead”, she says. So, I invite her to come in the middle. Everybody hugs her and whispers comforting words. It is the first time she says something about this, except for her mother, but her response was not very helpful for her. She has the courage to speak up. Therefore her healing has begun….

Sexual abuse

is a situation where there is no consent between two people for being touched with a sexual intent. Especially when children are involved who have no say in the matter. Manipulation, secrecy and loneliness adds to the severity of the wounds that are created. The damage is done and requires attention to change the behavioural patterns that arise as a result of the wounds. 

So, heal the wounds of your Inner child, she / he deserves it, because you deserve it!

Renae did it…

Sexual abuse

More than 55 years ago I experienced sexual abuse. As a 7 year old boy I was harassed in the dark by a man in a long coat, having me touch his penis. Although this might seem a small incident, it had a huge impact on my life. It was not the only incident. Somewhere along the line I experienced a form of energetic abuse. Where the first experience left a vivid image, still I can feel physical what happened. The other time has a blurry memory, where I felt the strong sexual desire of someone to abuse me. In an energetic way, it already took place, not leaving physical sensations, but an energetic imprint.

The blossom Tree, man in dark
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The tools I worked with, around sexual abuse, where Reiki and Inner Child work. My best friend and Sister in Australia helped me a lot to go through the many layers of the abuse. It’s not only the emotions of the fact itself, like disgust, fear and disbelieve. Also not being able to talk to anybody about it. The feelings of loneliness with my story, feelings of it being my fault and many others.

Healing Sexual abuse

In time, after disclosure, I was able to heal myself, deal with all the emotions and get the energy out of the situations. I remember the numerous occasions I was talking to my inner child about all the feelings he still had around the abuse. Oh boy, what did he suffer all that time.

It’s not over yet. My sexual energy has been distorted for a long time, not only because of the incidents, but also because of the shame and blame that happened around my sexuality as a young kid wanting to know the difference between boys and girls, as at home we only had boys and during my schooling sexes were strictly separated.

Masculine energy

I’m still dealing with my male energy as I have not trusted this energy since I was a child. Now I’m at the level where I am working with my male energy to start trusting it again and find the inner harmony with both my masculine and feminine energies.

What helped me a lot with the sexual abuse, was the change of perspective, from being a victim to the spiritual perspective of having chosen for this experience from a soul perspective. This took me out of the victimhood to a more empowered place. When I chose for this, then what am I supposed to do with it? One of the things is to talk about it, bring it to the light and support others with similar experiences. This is starting to happen.

Reiki class

Reiki class
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We are about to finish the Reiki class. “Are there any questions?” “Yes,” Sophia says, “my leg hurts, already for some time and I have trouble walking long distance. Can I do something about that?” “Where does it hurt?” “Here, in the side of my upper leg” I look at her for a little while. “I have a question for you, is it from this lifetime or an other?” She looks at me with a frown on her face and she closes her eyes for a second. “Not from now” she says thoughtfully. “Have an other look, what do you see?”  She looks down again and feels her leg. “Yes, there is something sticking out of my leg” “It’s a dagger, isn’t it? Now pull it carefully out and hold your hand on that place. Allow the Reiki energy to flow so the wound can heal”.


Sophia is one of my Reiki students and a very sensitive person. She is very much connected to the energy of time and space and is able to look into other lifetimes, not only for herself but also for others. She is a journalist from South America and a feminist activist. A couple of weeks later we meet again. “You know Henk,” I gave Reiki to myself on that spot”, while pointing on her upper leg, “and the pain in my leg went away in just a couple of days and has never returned, I can use my leg normal now” “You did a good job” I said to her, “ you healed your leg well”.

The same evening she asked for my date and place of birth. After bringing up my star-chart, she gave me an astrologic reading. I only can say, spot on. Now she is moving on for her work, next stop for her is Europe. Thank you Sophia, for being part of my life.

Reiki and more in Cusco

After arriving in Cusco, I spent some time in hostels and explored a bit of the city and did a guided tour. On the 3rd day I found a place to stay long term. I rented a room in a private apartment. The Monday after I could come, but before that I became sick in the hostel I was staying in. It turned out to be altitude sickness, but it looked like the flu. After a bottle of oxygen, I felt myself again.

The blossom Tree Cusco city
Cusco city

That Monday, I checked in with Inés, my landlady. In the first 2 weeks I took my time to adjust to the hight of Cusco, 3400 meters above sea level. When our other house mate arrived, back from Lima, we talked about Reiki. Pretty soon the first Reiki course started. In the living room, with 4 participants.

After that, many more Reiki 1 courses followed, at the time of writing 8 courses. In these courses I have trained more than 20 people here in Peru. Because Peru is Spanish, I decided to take Spanish classes and that is a really good help in communicating with the Peruvians.

The blossom Tree Street Food
Street Food

Since I arrived in Cusco, a bit more than 1,5 months have passed. Time goes very fast. I feel blessed to have done so much work already. The next project is Reiki 2 and Inner child work, Which will start before the end of this month!

The Blossom Tree San Blas Market
San Blas Market

Iquitos, Reiki is starting in the jungle, Peru

Iquitos, after my decision to stay with a family, just for 2 days, interesting things started happening. The first evening I went to the boulevard by motor taxi and the taxi driver robbed me. I felt sad, angry and disappointed. It was not the first time, also on the boat coming back from the jungle, the guys on the boat went through our luggage and took out some stuff.

A policeman brought me home and the family immediately wanted to help. We went to the tourist police and one of the family members helped out with the translation. There they heard my profession, Maestro de Reiki. Back home we talked about my work and mother and daughter were very interested in a Reiki course. So that is what I offered them. I changed my ticket for a few days and so we did the Reiki 1 course in their Patio. Eventually 6 people turned up and with the great translation of the daughter, we had a beautiful Reiki 1 class.

Reiki in Iquitos

Only a couple of days later I took the plane to Cusco. New adventures waiting to be born!